Friday, March 4, 2011

and then the world falls apart

Weight is steady, but sometimes that just doesn't really matter.

I just have to say this... I used to hold him all night long and try to will his pain into my own body. It didn't work.

The sky is clear tonight. Looking out of my living room window at Orion's belt, I thought of warm summer nights, laying on the grass and gazing at the stars.

My husband bought me a Wonder Woman figurine... he left it on my night stand. Ironic, but I love him for the sentiment.

I'm not crazy here. Just tired. I hope I have fight in me when I wake up tomorrow morning. Sometimes there isn't any other choice.


  1. I am so sorry for what you are going through. Sending hugs, love and strength and good thoughts your way!

    If I lived in Utah I'd take you out for a soda :)


  2. I'm not sure what I've missed - but it doesn't sound good.



  3. good morning...thinking of you....

  4. (((hugs))) and I'll send some (((strength))) too! Hope things get better.

  5. Hoping today is a better day. XOXO

  6. I hope things get better, I think about you everyday. Love you!!

  7. This post took my breath away. I'm praying everything is OK.

  8. Oh honey - what's going on? How can we help? Love you.