Friday, March 4, 2011

and then the world falls apart

Weight is steady, but sometimes that just doesn't really matter.

I just have to say this... I used to hold him all night long and try to will his pain into my own body. It didn't work.

The sky is clear tonight. Looking out of my living room window at Orion's belt, I thought of warm summer nights, laying on the grass and gazing at the stars.

My husband bought me a Wonder Woman figurine... he left it on my night stand. Ironic, but I love him for the sentiment.

I'm not crazy here. Just tired. I hope I have fight in me when I wake up tomorrow morning. Sometimes there isn't any other choice.
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10 comments:

  1. JenMarch 4, 2011 at 11:06 PM

    I am so sorry for what you are going through. Sending hugs, love and strength and good thoughts your way!

    If I lived in Utah I'd take you out for a soda :)

    xoxo

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  2. workinprogressMarch 5, 2011 at 2:13 AM

    I'm not sure what I've missed - but it doesn't sound good.

    *hugs*

    xoxoxo

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  3. AnonymousMarch 5, 2011 at 5:42 AM

    Hope things get better for you, Lara.

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  4. Shrinking MommyMarch 5, 2011 at 6:07 AM

    good morning...thinking of you....

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  5. JustawallflowerMarch 5, 2011 at 6:43 AM

    (((hugs))) and I'll send some (((strength))) too! Hope things get better.

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  6. Jen from OregonMarch 5, 2011 at 7:57 AM

    <3 <3 <3 Hugs Lara!

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  7. BonnieMarch 5, 2011 at 2:47 PM

    Hoping today is a better day. XOXO

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  8. Donut ButtMarch 5, 2011 at 5:50 PM

    I hope things get better, I think about you everyday. Love you!!

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  9. JenMarch 5, 2011 at 8:16 PM

    This post took my breath away. I'm praying everything is OK.

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  10. ♥ Drazil ♥March 5, 2011 at 9:29 PM

    Oh honey - what's going on? How can we help? Love you.

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