Rozerem girl strikes!!!

• With the intent of switching things up, I've added the sleeping medication Rozerem to the Ambien I take. Rozerem hits quite a bit faster than my Ambien- there's no play time. There aren't too many feelings worse than the startle awake worry that maybe I z-mailed or blogged under the influence? Yup, I did...

• The Ambien has been losing its efficacy (as to be expected), and I was hoping to replace it with the Rozerem, but it looks like I'm going to have to take it in addition to. That is fine, Rozerem increases melatonin or something similar to that, and is marketed as non-addicting. It's been working great for almost two weeks. The first week I was tired all of the time, but I rode out that side effect since they usually wear off, and I think it has. Fingers crossed that this new drug doesn't lose it's efficacy too quickly.

• Speaking of not losing efficacy, I have been so pleased with my band this week. We have been eating out every day, and my band helps me to be so reasonable. For example, I can eat exactly half a cheese burger (with bun!), and a couple (ok, maybe three) fries. I do not drink with meals while I'm out because I will "bp" for certain if I do. I did eat an entire super nachos yesterday, but it took me from 11 am until 4 pm (FIVE hours) to accomplish the task, and there was no thought or desire to eat anything else for the rest of the day.

• As we were out and about during the week, I kept particularly noticing obese women. It would break my heart- I know how miserable they are. It made me want to really use the tool I have and not let it go to waste. Ok, so my choices have not been stellar, I have been trying to focus on protein, which was probably the only band "rule" I kept religously. I've let that slide a bit... literally... now that I'm not focused on loss. I feel so fortunate to have this help!!! I want to utilize this tool for a very long time- I can not go back. I won't go back.

• Like many other bandsters, I get a little bit concerned around holidays because they center around food. How many holidays are about giving candy??? Anyway, I did make a conscious effort to try to buy toys and not candy for my children this year. I did buy a little bit, but stuff I'm not crazy about. In years past, I would buy the kids candy that I liked... yup, I would. I am having to make an effort to not put myself in a bad position as far as candy. I did have some homemade crack peanut butter eggs my sister made... she obviously hates me. ;)

• So, as mentioned in my tell-all Rozerem induced post, I have lots of emotional stuff in the next couple of weeks. It will be interesting to see how it affects my eating. I will be keeping a close eye on this. I think I'm going to do ok because I'm making the effort to be aware of both how I'm feeling and what I'm eating. Am I the only one who thinks its crazy that we have to focus so much on this aspect of our lives???