Waiting for the Whoosh

I.am.stuck.at.191.lbs... I witnessed even higher numbers during the week. I'm thinking it might be time for a fill. I've been stingy with those... I've only had two since I've been banded. I keep trying to do this by myself, and DUH, if I could do it by myself, I wouldn't have been obese. I do feel some restriction, but a teeny little tweak might help me to remember faster to STOP. But, on the bright side- I honestly and proudly put down my REAL weight when I was getting all my ski gear this past weekend. And, I only weigh 30 lbs more than my son (he's really skinny during ski season, he'll pack on about 20 lbs during the summer). I'm happy about what I've accomplished with my weight loss, but this next 40 or so pounds seems really daunting. Yeah, I think a fill might do me some good.

Tomorrow, I turn 40! I'm feeling some birthday blues, I think. Turning forty is really exciting for me... I finally know who I am and what I'm doing! It's a very liberating feeling for me, and I know this is going to be my best decade ever. I've been saying I'm forty for a couple of months now, so the number itself isn't making me upset. Maybe it's a combination of birthday blues, stuck scale, and I always get sad when I have to say good bye to my oldest. I think my husband has something up his sleeve (and I hope it involves FIREMEN), so that might help my mood slightly. :)

Spontaneous:
I remembered the good one I was going to talk about! A little background here real quick: Mr. W and I did not know each other in high school (we grew up thousands of miles apart), but IF we had, we would have been in very different social groups. He was kind of a shy, nerdy kid- and I thought (mistakenly) that I was all that (and a keg party, too). I wouldn't have even noticed him (sadly)- and luckily I got much smarter as I got older, and could recognize a super good thing- and now he's mine! Anyway, he liked (and to some extent in a glory days kind of way) still likes "headbanger" or hard rock music. Not my cup of tea, but I've been opening myself up to all kinds of new things. Long story longer :), he sent me a link last week for a concert in Nevada- Queensryche? I don't know anything about them, but I immediately bought us tickets (and they were almost sold out!?!)- and sent the confirmation to him. About 3 minutes turn around time. Needless to say, he was shocked! and that made me happy! The concert is February 13th, so we get to go away for a Valentine's weekend. Win/win.

Food:
About 40 grams of protein, 700 calories (as usual) planned for today. Yogurt, oatmeal, zone bar, ravioli, popcorn. All served with a dash of restriction, or not. Which reminds me I need to call my surgeon's office...