Blog Pressure

There is alot of pressure to perform when the whole world (or several people) are reading about your weight loss progress, or as for some of us, slowness! I should have been happy with the 190, because today was 191. It was impossible for me to have gained fat weight, because the most calories I've eaten is 1800. Mixed news is, I had to buy some work slacks a couple of weeks ago, because I just couldn't wear my bigger ones any longer- and my new ones lasted 10 days before I had to buy the next size down. My daughter tried to talk me into getting the 14's from the beginning, but my mind set is still set on "big". I need to trust her from here on out, because without the scale moving, it's difficult for me to acknowledge that I'm actually smaller. Shopping can be so fun, but there's a part of me that doesn't know what to make of it. I fully plan on working on that issue!!!

Yesterday, I was home with a migraine. The throwing up kind. I'm back at work today, but probably shouldn't have driven because my eyesight is still a little blurry. Is it wrong to hope that I've lost weight from this experience? How warped is that? But, that would make it slightly worth it? Crazy. But, true.

Spontaneous:
Go to hell. ;)~

Food:
What's the sound of puking? I don't know how to spell it... I have food in the fridge, but I don't think it's going to happen. Will this end already?