Monday, May 3, 2010
DANGER! ALERT! ALERT!
I am so happy to be back at work. As much as I love having time off... it's dangerous to my health. Specifically, my weight! I have made it clear that I'm not dieting? But, I may not have made it clear that I'm not stupid (well, most of the time). Lots of time at home + a variety of chips and sweets in the pantry = unnecessary temptation. I discovered myself foraging for foods that had been staples in my pantry, that until this prolonged time at home, had absolutely no effect on me. I did fine calorie wise, not enough to gain, but definitely not enough to lose. And, I found myself falling into old and concerning snackiness. Watching television and eating snacks is a weighty combination. Today, my schedule and way of life are back to normal. I'm a good little eater when I'm at work! There's little temptation to make poor or excessive choices. When I get home tonight, I will be too busy to watch tv and eat junk. Just in case, I disposed of any and all foods that might call to me in a snacky way. I think that you can take the fat off of the girl, but she's still a fat girl. This is something I am going to have to watch for the rest of my life. I'm grateful for the help of my band, but I'm still me. A much improved version of me... physcially. And, mentally... I'm also much better. I'm recognizing more, and trying to be honest about what I'm doing in order to get a realistic grip on this weight issue for the rest of my life. I'm really happy to have this sense of control physically and emotionally. I AM doing this!