First of all, sorry that I come accross as preachy in some of my posts. It's really for me, not you. If you get something out of my craziness... good, I'm happy. But the preachy is not intended in your direction, but to help reinforce for myself the things I'm learning and figuring out. Thanks for bearing with me, I appreciate your insight and support.
It's Friday. Eighty degrees and clear blue skies for the foreseeable future. HEAVEN. It's also about time! Oh, and the summer pants I bought... are getting too loose. I thought this was my final size, but barring any more surgical swelling, it appears I'm getting smaller. Scale is not budging. Hasn't moved in six weeks. My swelling has been all over the place, and then PMS weight, and on and on, and I'm not sure that I really want to actually lose any more weight but maintenance is a fine balance because I also don't want to gain any weight. Now do you see why I have to get this all out for me to figure out?
Tomorrow my daughter is 40 weeks! ANY.DAY.NOW!!! I'm a mix of thoughts and emotions. Some of you may know well the responsibility of motherhood. It's wonderful! But parenthood is the biggest and most important challenge in a persons life. Not everyone chooses that path. Some people have the path find them. However, I truly believe that for a woman, there needs to be more in her life than children. For me, I've been a much better mom as a direct result of having my own life and career and purpose. That's what I hope for my daughter. She will be a fantastic mother, but most importantly for her and her little family, she will be a fantastic person.
Trying to decide what movie to see tonight. Confession time... I crave movie theatre popcorn. I have to have to have to have it once a week. Do I want butter on that? Do I look like the kind of girl that DOESN'T want butter on that??? I want to leave in an ambulance! Ok, that's not funny. However, I love it. It's one of those things I can't give up. I plan for it. I can't physically eat that much (duh), but every Friday I get so excited for our little date night splurge! I was advised that after my band, I would not be able to tolerate popcorn. Sadness... but it turns out that's not true for me! Not only is it a fine Friday, but also a crunchy, buttery, salty one. Hope it is for you, too! ;)