Have you ever watched an older dog in REM sleep and wondered if they were dreaming about when they were a puppy and could run and frolick and play? Well, around the time I was getting my lapband, I would have dreams about skinny clothes shopping. Looking through racks of clothing, and happily picking armfuls to try on, with no worry about anything fitting or looking anything other than good. Like it used to be before I weighed almost three hundred pounds. I also had this one fabulous dream that I was on the Riviera, in a bikini, and caught my reflection in a window... and nodded approvingly to myself because I liked what I saw. It wasn't perfect, but it was very decent. I even had a scar from my stomach surgery...
I bring these up because those dreams are pretty much a reality for me now. It was so delightfully strange for me to be shopping this week for a black tie event. Especially because I wasn't in any fat sections. I'm definitely on the heavy end of normal... but I am NORMAL. I could pick any dress that I LIKED... not just whatever meager matronly fat girl clothes were begrudgingly offered for my consideration. I share this not to gloat, but to give hope. If you've ever read even one post of mine, you've probably got a fairly clear picture of what I expect from my band. I'm not going to diet. I can't. I've tried, and failed. Over and over again. And now... I'm living my dreams. So, if I can do it... YOU will also do it. If you are struggling with your band because it seems so slow... it is... but that's ok. YOU WILL GET THERE.
Spontaneous:
Mani and pedi. All alone with a good gossip magazine... heaven...
Food:
Ham & cheese omelette, zone bar, jalapeno poppers, chocolate cake. I'm at about 1500 calories for the day. I get a fill on Wednesday. Believe it or not, I am a little hesitant to lose very much weight in the next two weeks because my "dress" aka "THE dress" is a size 14, and fits perfectly at the moment, but I'm afraid a few pounds might make it too big. Don't you just hate when that happens? I AM LIVING THE DREAM!!!
Ahhh! That was refreshing! Your post seriously has given me some peace of mind and I cannot tell you what that means. Although deep down I know I've made the right decision, I'd be lying if I didn't admit that every day since surgery I've had a couple of twinges of "what have I done?" and fear that it just won't work for me. I really appreciate your insight and honesty! Thanks!
ReplyDeleteWow! You are living the dream! Please post pictures of the dress, I wanna see! Thank you for the words of hope. I am not banded yet and I really do learn so much from these blogs.
ReplyDeleteI love your blog - seriously - though I don't sport a lap band - your honesty still gives me hope...slow and steady...tis very true. I'm so happy for you and your dress....um pictures please.
ReplyDeletewOW....That must of felt awesome. I can't wait to buy clothes I like...not just because they fit
ReplyDeleteThat's great and definitely gives me hope...I have currently dropped 4 sizes and running out of clothes! I want to buy but need to wait it out a little longer and get some tweenie bits and pieces....I can't wait for the day to get into a normal size and shop to my hearts content...post a pic of THE Dress!
ReplyDeleteOh Happy Day!! Great post... loved this and congrats...
ReplyDeleteHey Band Babe... I really look forward to seeing you in your new dress....
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