From Websters Dictionary-
"proceeding from natural feeling or native tendency without external constraint"
That's my "word" for the year. Other close runners up were "true" and "us", but "spontaneous" seemed to encompass it all. Taking the chance on surgery was for me a risky move. It probably wouldn't be for some people, but I've spent my entire adult life with as many internal as external constraints. Always putting children, career, anything other than myself first. Doing this for ME was a huge step. Along those lines, I've tried to stuff any negative feelings, and always put on my strong front for everyone, and in that process I was not true to myself. That made me physically sick (ie- fibromyalgia and fat). And, not also was I always putting myself last, but my sweet husband as well. This weight loss has made me feel happy and I feel free of a terrible physical burden. I am trying to be true to myself and accept all my feelings without judgement, which is also freeing me of heavy emotional burden. I'm making my relationship with my husband my top priority. And, I'm taking risks and doing things I never would allow myself to previously do- going on little weekend get aways, trying expensive restaurants, going out with Mr. Wonderful as often as possible, just the two of us. Everyone in my family is happier now that I'm approaching life this way. My children are so supportive of me spending time on myself, I think they can see and feel a huge difference. I will keep myself accountable by updating my blog on how I'm doing with being SPONTANEOUS in 2010.
Food for today:
Two pieces of pizza, 3 small breadsticks, 18 whoppers (that's one serving size- and then I flushed the entire rest of the box down the toilet. there's one floater in the guest bathroom, can't wait until someone comes across THAT!). Have I mentioned I can't wait to get back to our daily routine? Oh, and I weigh myself tomorrow morning... I really hope I've just held steady. Fingers crossed, MOUTH SHUT!!!